Paranoia

Reality hasn't struck me until just now. There's only 6 more days to the beginning of year 2! OMG?

I have been feeling the need to revise relevant topics but expectedly, the inertia of taking action is bigger than my monstrous appetite. I am determined to get started before school starts though.

As I have previously mentioned, I am ambivalent about the beginning of the upcoming sem. Excitement meets trepidation. Excited because I get to hang out with my classmates so very often; scared because I'm unsure of the future. Like how my social circle may change and of course, academic performance.

I've always had high hopes for what's coming up for me. But I am always in one way or another disappointed in the end. Why is it so easy for the others yet so hard for me? What did I not do and what should I do? I have no idea at all.

Despite all, I will still try to make the best out of my third semester because I have grown to love this Pharmily (haha that's what we call ourselves) so much that I miss school when I'm at home.

This brings me to another point - I like my classmates more than they like me. That's what I feel. I sound like an insecure and paranoid woman right? I know. But I really do think this is the truth! I ALWAYS, yes ALWAYS like people more than they'll like me. I know I have nothing to be loveable of. & I generally just like people very easily okay. Is this considered as 花痴??